nicole loves her butt [a love letter]

In honor of the month of love, Body Revolution 2013, and of National Eating Disorder Awareness Week, I've contacted a handful of my favorite bloggers to write a love letter to their favorite or least favorite part of their bodies. As bloggers, we write about our trials with our clothes, but we rarely talk about the bodies that we can't just leave on our closet floors when they don't look quite right in the mirror. 

This is my letter. I hope it, and the other letters you read this week, will inspire you to show your body a little love.

Disclaimer: These letters are personal and vulnerable, but important to share. Please be sensitive if you choose to leave a comment. Body shaming will not be tolerated.
Hey hey bootay,

I know you're back there, even if I have to reach my head around to see you. Oh, and I do.

Growing up, no one knew about you because I swam in all my jeans. Upon discovering the sewing machine, I learned to take in my jeans to fit right up against my thighs, but my dark wash Mudd Denim just flattened you out. I remember one time, a girl in my grade lent me a pink mini-skirt that had pleats starting at the top of my thighs. I wore it to school and you got me in trouble for being so bodacious. I think I was supposed to feel ashamed, but I just felt awesome.

Sometimes, I do feel a little guilty for having you though. I get uncomfortable in tight, short dresses because I feel like I look like I'm trying too hard to show you off. I worry that you make pencil skirts look unprofessional. I'm just a little white girl; I don't think I'm allowed to have this much junk in the trunk.

But then I slip you into a pair of leggings and wear a shirt that's short enough to expose you. I feel so hot in my yoga pants that I find excuses to bend over, even when I'm just home alone. After I button up my skinny jeans, I can't help but put my hands in my pockets and remember how fabulous you are. 

You're so strong. You hold me up while I write for hours. You fight off oppressive, unwanted gazes. You are not for them. You don't need anyone's approval and you don't owe anyone anything. You deserve respect and you won't settle for anything less.

I like to think that, like bread, all of my passion goes to my ass. You are so full of experiences and ambitions and you keep me stable when I'm feeling restless. I'm going to try to dress you up in more lace and sit on less hard wooden benches. Maybe we'll go swimming more this summer and maybe you'll even get a little sun.

Thanks for always being there for me and for always having my (lower) back.

xo nic

6 comments

  1. hahahah ok, you are totally my favorite.
    and girl you do have a butt.
    you are one of those cute girls where you see them a and you are like "oh shes cute and skinny," and then you turn around and you are like "what she has a butt" i love it. you got it all.

    K

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  2. this is amazing & inspiring. thank you for writing this letter this week.

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  3. hahah, I love you Nicole.
    I literally snorted out loud and Curtis had to ask what I was asking about, then I showed him and he laughed along with me. He too has a rather large butt, and people like to bring attention to it, but he just don't cuurrr. ;)

    This is awesome! :)

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  4. booty poppin' hollaaaaaa

    I have a big butt too, and I always kind of felt the same way--like I'm supposed to be ashamed (I'm white! I should have a perfect chest and no butt at all!) but I just don't care. I grew up mainly around African-Americans, who were always proud of their butts, and I think they passed that on to me. Also, my butt is what keeps me in the saddle and has saved me from serious injury the many times I have become detached from said saddle, so I can't complain!

    You did a great job with this letter. You need not have worried :)

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  5. love love love this. obviously. You're fantastic Nicole!

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  6. BIGBOOTYJUDY. ...oops I meant Nicole. Yes bigbootynicole.

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